Will you be my destruction?

I'm sitting here about to watch another tat be done. My uncle has had business all day. They're all rednecks. People nicknamed Haystack & Papa and have names like Bubba. ....to say the least I'm quite annoyed. The one guy got a tat of the john deere logo.. the other had some deer skeleton fixed up...to top it all off they chewed tobacco. Good lord... O_o Oh well. I'm watching House though, so everythings a million times better. Haha.

I did my first tat on practice skin! At 4 AM. Haha. I did really good, my uncle is mad. Haha. Not really, just silly. =P (yea, this is a late addition to this blog)



Today was the worst day ever this time last year. I'll never get over it and I'll always remember it. It's just the worst yet though... I don't want to see the worst of the worst. It scares me... I know it's going to involve one of or both my grandparents dying. I don't know what I'll do.

Got extremely wasted Thursday night...good lord. I drank a whole smaller bottle by myself. I felt gooooooooood. I don't even remember laying in my bed & passing out...but I remember waking up & puking in that bowl I had by me especially for that. Missed some though... Cleaned that up. Then went to a doctor's appointment with my mom... I felt soooooo horrible.

I was cleaning that kittens eyes this morning when I went to my grandparents & oh god... I was just opening them & cleaning them. (The outside's pollen & whatnot causes their eyes to get infected) well... I was rubbing at the left one & opened it a bit & puss just poured out! as;fklj Omg... I was sooo grossed out. It almost got on my AFI shirt. =/ But anyway, it poured out onto it's face & I'm freaking out cuz it's just gross cleaned it up... Then dang. I took it back outside & it was running around playing... I love that. I made the kitten feel better. There's nothing that makes me happier than making an animal happy. I just felt horrible knowing it's just gonna happen again & again ...then it's eyes are bloodshot so that's painful to see...but it was soooo much happier. =]


Well. I guess that's it.

EDIT: No, I lied. AFI & friends make me happier than making animals better... but close! X]

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