So I haven't blogged in quite awhile. Things got a lot worse. After some other things I was drinking about every night and partying all night with Jackie and Travis. Then after that stopped...I was being ignored, yet again. So me angry, Amanda also angry at Jackie... I told Amanda I was going to confront her, and I did. She said she just wanted to be left alone. And so I was like fine, I'll leave you alone. Then Travis is all like you guys love each other blahblah you're not sure of what you're doing. So I just told them I wanted my cd and Amanda wants her jacket.
Well... days went by, wasn't talking to her. Then I was talking to Jade on myspace. She asked me how was Travis and Jackie...and I told her "I'm currently not talking to her. I don't like the way she treats her friends. She talks big shit about Brittany then hangs out with her, wtf?" ...then she said that Travis was fucking Tori blahblah so I'm like "woah didn't know about Tori..that's fucked up" and then next thing I know Amanda's asking me why I'm talking about Jackie on Jade's myspace. ...and I asked her why she was asking and then she put on her status something about people need to keep other people's names out of their mouth where they don't belong. WTF!?
So I asked her about it and I said I was thinking about going back to Delaware where I belong because shit just kept piling up. She said shit wouldn't pile up if I didn't cause drama for myself. Again...wtf? ... so I'm freaking out, crying like a pussy and shit...then asking her wtf I did then she said I shouldn't be talking about people publicly blahblah and I texted Jackie saying shit was falling apart and she told me yeah stop talking to me, basically. She still has my Cexcells cd. I'm trying not to notice when I pull an AFI cd out. And it was the exclusive one from Hot Topic too...I can only imagine what has been done to it now. Or she uses that one now cuz hers skipped a lot. Mine, of course, was flawless. -_-
So again, more upsetness..I called Amanda twice, 2nd time I left her a message saying she wasn't there for me and she said she was in class and she said she was there for me. I have no idea 'till this day WTF was going on. All of a sudden her & Jackie are the bestest of friends again & she's hanging out with her friends. So her bday comes along, I'm not on her top friend list thingy on myspace & her gf was apparently "didn't like it" so she took it off. Niceeeee.
Then, I hung out with Lori & Jess, Meghan, and Amber Hughes... this week and it really made me realize who my true friends are. I can't believe I ever pushed them aside for people who could care less. Just like Sammi said, something happened to that generation to make most of them bullshitters and two faced. I'm through with wasting my good qualities on someone who could care less or are gonna turn around and talk crap about me. Or worse, ignore me because they've got better going on.
On top of all that, the day before Abby called me saying she's engauged... to a guy that's 34 (I think) ...which is old enough to be her father. So I don't approve and she flips out on me because I'm not happy for her. I'm not going to lie to my best friend and tell her false shit. Then she woke me up one night around 2am at walmart wanting to talk to me just b/c. Haha. She's like "I'm supposed to be mad at you! But I love you and I'm at walmart" XD Silly. Like she'd stay mad at me forever anywayz.
*sigh of relief* Now I'm back to a few months ago, basically. And it feels pretty great. I never thought I'd appreciate what a boring life I have until now. Haha. Plus, I'm hanging out with my friends more so that's a plus. Drank last night & didn't get sad like at all. Except missing Jeffrey hahaha. Haven't seen him in quite awhile and he's turning 21 next month! Woah! =]
Tonight Gracie might come by after work and do some shots with me. She's had a long week. Haha. She almost killed me last week. We went to see Underworld 3 with this guy Kevin she works with..he's pretty cool...I haven't even seen the other 2 but it was a prequel so I wasn't but so lost. It was pretty good, now I wanna see the others. Haha. Then Kevin drove us to her house. We drank some Jim Beam then passed out after watching Juno around 4am. She didn't really drink, I had a good buzz. Then woke up... got her up. I called my mom and ask her to pick me up whenever & so we talked & waited for her.
She called me confused where to go so after many, many given directions Amber decided she could take me to Richard Bland & my mom can get me there. She doesn't have a license or even a learners for that matter and she hadn't driven this SUV. So we get out into the road and she's like "WHY ISNT IT GOING ANYWHERE" and I'm freaking out already cuz it's one of those country roads where cars go really fast. No to mention I've been getting all these damn forward text messages saying "if you don't send this you're going to die in a car crash" WTF?! So we slowly move into one of her neighbors driveways...then called my mom telling her what happened then after even MORE confusing directions and her being in the REALLY bad parts of Petersburg... Amber tries to get out of the drive way. She successfully backed out and very roughly got back in her driveway. Haha. It was scary as hell even though we were going like 1mph. XD
My mom finallyyyy finds out she misread the directions and found us. Then I left. Haha. Funny shit, dude.
And with Amanda...idk how things are. She said we'll still hang out & stuff...but idk. She leaves me comments on myspace but when I ask if she wants to hang out she doesn't text me back or anything. Whatever. *shrug*
Tomorrow going over Taylor's house & staying the night. Haven't been over there in quite awhile, besides dropping her off. I'm excited. =]
Phewwwww! That was a lot.
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