The Eye comes out tomorrow. =]
Me & Taylor are gonna go see it. I think it'll be kinda awkward in some ways...but I think I can deal. I'm really trying to be ...idk...well not me? I don't know what, really. But woo.
Watch it be shxtty...but not so shxtty b/c Jessica Alba is hot. =]
We've got a bitchin' idea to learn all the AFI songs by heart & be able to match it with the titles (yea, cuz the old songs are hard to keep up with). It's quite fun. ^_^ She's actually been calling me on her own, it really makes me happy... b/c usually when I talk to her on aim, myspace... or call her myself, I feel like such a bother. =/ Well, I probably am...but when she calls or talks to me, I don't. I feel acknowledged...if that makes any sense. Hey, I'm pathetic. >_>
I think I'm actually gonna go through with this healthy diet thing. I'm going to push myself through it. I need to stop watching these things on eating disorders... I watched Intervention the other night & the girl looked like a skeleton.. literally. It was so creepy... but it's one of those things...that trigger a habit in me... & makes me want to feel that emptiness for some reason I can't explain.
I fear that I'll go through that again, I haven't fasted or anything in awhile... I usually do when I see Taylor... I think it's because when I'm excited, I forget to eat then when I'm over there, I'm afraid to eat in front of her... & then there's but it's those types of things... wanting to be good enough for someone, maybe ...that just trigger it. That's all I can gather.
There's moments when I just feel like I have nothing else. Only to better myself for other peoples likings, even if it destroys me. I'm in tears now... ugh.
Well, I plan to eat healthy. I just ate a salad...so I should be good. I also got stuff to make pasta salad. Drinking only green tea. The only thing I got that isn't probably the best for me is the chocolate dipped peanut butter granola bars. O_o I can't help ittt. =] So dieting is my goal. I have a book I kept last year where I list what I've eaten, it helps me... I need to start writing in it again.
I also want to join a gym or somthing. Curves is right down the street & my mom is supposed to take me to join, but Erica told me that they let you on the machines or w/e only a certain amount of time...be there a certain amount of time. But the good thing is that it's just girls... Idk. I guess I'll have to find something. American Family Fitness looks more promising... has classes & all, I believe. That'd be good for me.
The Killswitch show is this weekend. =[ I'm not going...after what happened... My mom coudln't sleep a few nights ago & knew Jeff was out with that boys mother drinking or something. So she said she was going to the bar to see if he was there or w/e & tell him off & leave. I guess he wasn't there so she went by the house & saw them in the window... So she caught them fxcking. She knocked on the door & all. Karen came to the door all drunk & ran back to Jeff to warn him of her being there.
So my mom's all yelling going through the house as Jeff was in the bathroom cleaning up or w/e. Hid the girl, apparently. Karen was drunk so she's all yelling calling my mom names & telling her that she doesn't belong there anymore or w/e. Grabbed my mom's face & whatnot & then her boyfriend pulled her away. Ugh. My mom came home & we talked about it & apparently she had slept with him within 3 days, I believe. Sooo she's gotta be worried what she's got. Ha, the lady is married too... What a mess.
I just think it's funny how after all that Jeff still claims he was sleeping & that he had to use the bathroom...blahblah they were just talking... It's so funny. My mom's so idiotic for sleeping with him though. I'm not on my mother's side, to be honest. I'm not on either. I think she's stupid for taking him back after what happened year before last... I think it's stupid that she fell for his lying now.
UGH.
Oh well, not my problem.
I need to play Final Fantasy 10 more. I died for the first time the other day...then fxcking died again. >=[ Lameeee.
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