Listen as I break.

I've decided I'm going to cut myself off from emotion. Or at least I'm going to try. A goal... I'm tired of feeling like shxt because I hang onto too many things & I'm tired of being an emotional wreck. I can make myself happy but the emotional side of me is just holding me back. I don't want it. I don't need it. What I thought would make me happy or whatever isn't going to happen so might as well cut the crap & do what I have to do be happy. It's not like I'm hurting anyone in the process. Ha. I've realized I'm not as open as I seem... I'm not. I keep a lot of things to myself & I don't trust anyone. Ha thanks to my family for that one. I've become numb to rejection & disappointment but I just don't want to deal with that anymore either. I won't feel it if it's not there, right?
Then it won't be.
Hopefully I can be just as careless.

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