I'm running through your veins like a habit you can't kick.

This sucks. I'm sick. =[ It's nothing but a cold.. but blah congestion. >=[

Well I'm going to Delaware in a few weeks. =D Feb. 8th. I'm soooo excited. I get to stay with my cousin. I'm kinda nervous but way more excited. I've only talked to her online, she's a few years younger than me. I haven't seen her since she was an ity bity baby & I was like 3-4 years old. So yay. We get along really well. I'm sure we'll have an AWESOME time. Ahh yay I'm so excited. ^_^

I'm gauging my hear again. It was only a 0g but I'm stretching it back to a 00g. I got some bitchin' plugs off Ebay. Blue glitter ones & some sweet pink & purple ones. I still have some AFI stickers coming along with some Claires stuff. I swear...stuff takes forever. =/ Except my birth certificate. Got that this morning. My mom JUST ordered it yesterday... & it came from DE. You get what you pay for... better come fast it being 16 something for shipping. Now I can finally get my learners & whatnot. Take my GED test. ^_^ Yayy. Out of school.... for now.

Eventually I'll probably get a place in Richmond... get some room mates. It'll probably be awhile before I can do that though. Being in the middle of nowhere ...well not walking distance of much at all, I can't get a job until I get my license. Which I hope I can get by the time I'm 18... which is coming up. I'm going Saturday to take my Learners test. *nervous*

I fell asleep earlier last night & woke up with no one home & Spongebob being on quite loud in the living room. My mom, Jeff, & Josh came back a little while after. They went to Shoe Carnival. I guess I wasn't invited... my mom said she told me she was going to the store & I said okay. I don't remember... plus if she just said the store I wouldn't have thought anything of it. Lovely. I never get invited to their outings. You know how unwanted that makes me feel? I'm such an outcast in this. Jeff isn't my father...so they go on their little trips & whatnot not even inviting me. But then when they come back of course they're saying they're gonna get me some shoes & Jeff was asking me if I needed shoes. Well no... I don't. I wouldn't mind a pair. Ha. He sickens me. This whole ordeal sickens me.

I can't stand how my mother & him kiss. WHAT THE FXCK!? You are separated... Jeff just wants sympathy when he feels that he can get her back. Ugh. I hate them both for all of this. None of this should've never happened. Fxcking druggie. UGH.

Oddly enough it snowed yesterday. When I was in class I literally saw but a few flurries coming down. Then when I got out it started coming down A LOT. =] It didn't last long & it didn't stick at all but it made me happy cuz it looked so pretty. That's what I love about winter. I don't care for the cold but I loveee snow. The cats outside had never seen snow so they were chasing it & running from it. Haha. It was so cute. ^_^

God I hope my mom comes home soon with some meds. I feel like crap. I have a feeling I'm not going to be well enough to go with Taylor to go see Sweeney Todd. Ugh I wanna go so bad. I will if her mom is even willing to take us. I don't care if I'm sick. I can keep my distance from them. Or just pretend I have some alergies. Haha.

Gah... I still miss you.

<3